My Thoughts Are All Wrong ~~~

Why is everything happening to me ??
I just want to be a normal girl that have friends, have family , have my own life...
Why always i need to face something that i doesnt want to face???
Problems starts from many years ago...

Why is it , i cant find someone who can be friend with me for life??
In the beginning , i thought you will be special than others... i thought that i didnt choose wrong..
But in the end , i realise that i am wrong , wrong , wrong... You are not the one i am seaching for.
Its been 4 years... this four years you are fooling me ...
I know sometimes i may b to over... if you dont like pls tell me personally dont keep quiet pls..

Now, you walk out from my heart and someone walks in again....
This time i will try not to treat you like someone i treat 4 years ago...
My style had change but my heart purpose didnt change at all...
need to get some ready for next heart painful process again...
WHy cant life just be easy .. send someone that treasure me more than i treasure them...
If it really have , my life wont be that bad as now...

If you know you are the one that i treasure so much now.. Pls try not to hurt me..
I definetly will cry once more if you do....
Haiz..... Friendships forever never appear anymore...
I try to make things differently ... but bcoz my action do that ,.. things goes even worst...
Is this fair to me ??? I use 100% of heart and i never hope for anything... haiz...