My 2nd dear having a bad time !!!

Hey dear... You are my 2nd dear that told me about your broke up !!!
I am glad that you share it with me and i am sorry for your broke up..
Dear this is what girls usualy do when they are sad and upset "CRY"...
Dont feel sorry to for disturbing k ~~
Friends is not only for hanging out with in school but we are friends for each other to confort each other when they are sad !!!
I hope that you wont think silly things also ya ....
As i say your dear me will be here for you !!!
You are near to me so i can lend my shoulder to you ....
Promise me to stand up and cheer up ya !!!!

Sorry to the 1st dear !! Last time we too far d only can borrow my heart for you !!!!

Next week is Exams.... Scary

Next week is already my sem 4 Mid-Term ... Time fly very fast....
I didnt even start my plan this sememster...
Usualy i will read some notes 1 week b4 the exams but now i am still not yet start my readings..
Hope that i can read some into my mind b4 the exams starts....
By the way, there is a great lecture is having a revision for us 2moro i am so happy that she do this just for us....

And my friend... i am glad that you saw my blog and try to explain everything just now...
But i wanted to tell you that you wont work at all....
I want you to talk among 5 of us but not only me... Bcoz this is not just you and me ...Its 5 of us...
Hope that after mid-term you are ready for the settlement among us and you must accept the suggestion from us....

Tired in our friendship bcoz is heavy !!!

I am now telling the truth that i am tired in our friendship..
I cant imagine that i have such a day that a friend can make me tired ... Is extremely tired..
I just wana tell you all the things that you have done that is wrong but you are lucky..
Someone helps you, she say that you told her before you dont like ppl to say your bad words in front of you...
But can you pls listen ??? I know is shame to listen your own things but its good for you..
We are friends , i dont even "benefits" in this situation you know??
You are the one that benefits.. Everyone have mistake ... Included me ... i know my attitude sometimes is not good to you ... but do you know that why i treat you like this ?
This is because i am tired in what you done too me... Pls think what had you done in every friday !!
I am scared of Friday starts from last month because you always find something to scold me or angry me..
And do you know that this wednesday you close my phone with just a small reason is rude to me ???
I didnt even want to shout at you at all i just want you to tell me what happen why you close my phone?
And many things that i dont realy want to mention here bcoz i know is not fair to you at all..
So can we 5 have a nice chat after mid-term???
NOt to scold you but just tell you what is your mistake.
I doesnt realy do this kind of stupid things and shy things to friend but now i am offering such a good things for you hope that you can accept what we want to share with you...


Your friends, Selena and ++++ ...

May 11 - The day that somebody drive the whole group crazy !!!

Today there is someone drive the whole group crazy ...
Bcoz of one word "attitude" !!!
Do you feel that a attitude is a great things in the world??
I just feel that this word is so important...
Because of this word i learn on it how do i control it with my own feeling...
But there is someone that doesnt even know that bcoz of this simple word ... it realy drive us crazy..
We had a conversation on this "someone" but not saying bad words...
We are discusing that do we need to tell this "someone" that he/she should change his/her attitude by now ????
With this kind of attitude i think that the whole group cant even stand it anymore....
I know "you" also have something to tell us eg. My attitude! just tell me i will change.... Seriously
If "you" saw this blog i think you will be mad at me but i just wana tell you that not one of us wana hurt your feeling but wanted to help you out....
Pls consider what we wanted to help you k ....
"If" because what i had write make you unhappy its fine that you dont speak to me but not the others k .....
I know that its rude to do that but as a friend i would like to do such a silly thing in my life to help you up but not saying you back of you..... i know that feels bad ... i realy know that.....
If you realy read this blog i wont bother that willl you be mad or angry but just wana speak Out loud to you that ..... YOU REALY NEED TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE BY NOW PLS....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

I had miss our Mother's day again this year...
I already miss Mother's and Father's day for 4 years already ...
So sad for my parents ....
Not only mothers and fathers day i miss... EVen thier birthday i also miss 4 years already ..
feel that i am bad child to them what to do ...
The only things that i can do is call home and say somethings sweey to them and hear thier voice loh...
Hope that after my education i can celebrate everythings with them....
LOVe You mumy and dady....
Will be a good girl here in KL !!! hahaha

Wish every mother in this world a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

Tired.... Broke my rules ..

What the hell happen to you ??

Why am i ur target everytime??

Is it i am too good to be bully ??

You drive me crazy this few weeks...

I just cant even guess what are you trying to do this few days ...

is like what are you going to to next step ??

You make me broke my own rules man ..

I promise myself to control my temper but you force me to broke it ...

damn what wrong with you ???

Sh*t ... i have no mood to write all here...

Bali Trip (21/03 to 25/03)

INDONESIA: Bali trip –
(KUTA and LEGIAN, UBUD, NUSA DUA, TANAH LOT, ULUWATU)

Day 1 (21-03-09)

Wake up early in the morning at 6.45am. Arrive at the airport about 8.35am and check in our entire luggage (AK 900) and have our breakfast in “Marrybrown”. About 9.55am we board into the boarding area!!! Wow, very beautiful now in “AIRASIA” airport. 10.25a.m we took off from LCCT to DEPANSAR (BALI- Ngurah Rai International Airport). We reach there at 1.25 pm and we took a taxi to the hotel (MERCURE) that we are going to stay. The taxi fee cost us 50000 rupiah which is RM 15.63. When we are ready to follow the taxi driver to the car there were 3 guys helping us to take our luggage and we thought that it is the taxi service, but at the end when we reach the taxi the 3 guys showing us money sign in dactylology (手语). And we are still blur blur and ask “APA”, they say “TIPS TIPS” Haiz….. In the end we gave them RM5 and they were not very happy but still feel okay because for them that RM5 is about 13500 rupiah if you change in Bali.

TIPS: Please exchange your money in Malaysia because the exchange rate is higher than you change in the country that you are going.

Next,We took about 10 minutes to the hotel due to the traffic. When we reached the front security gate of the hotel we feel very surprise that they have to check the taxi before we enter the hotel but don’t know what the reason is? May be is because of the booming in 2002 and 2005.

Check-in to the hotel at 1.40pm but the room is not ready yet so we wait in the lobby for a cup of welcome juice but don’t know what flavor is that. After 30 minutes the receptionist came over and told us that our room is ready and we can go up now. Our room number is 350. When we go into the room, we realize that the room is very small for 3 of us but we feel very tired and have a nap. About 4.45pm we woke up and have a little walk around Kuta and Legian. We had our first dinner at Jalan Melasti. The dinner was delicious and we like it very much.

After dinner, we continue our walk and we took a big round back to our hotel. We reached our hotel about 10.30pm already, when we open the door of our room I realize that the additional bed is gone so we call to the reception and ask why is the bed gone and the receptionist told us that we had been move to another room which is bigger than the room we had previously. 2 bell boys came and ask us do we need a help for our luggage but we say very politely “NO, Thank you” because you have to pay them tips if they help. Next, We had been told by the first bell boy that our room had move to 206 but when we double check with the 2nd bell boy, he say it is 306 so we walk over to 306 but the key(card) cant open it and outside the door there was a card hanging on the door “Do Not Disturb”. We quickly walk away from the room and ask the bell boy again what is the actual number of our room and this time he say that is 206. We walk down to 206 and the door can’t open too so one of us went down to the reception and ask again. One of the receptionist went up to teach us how to open the door, at the end is because we dint slot the card right into the door that is why? But the room is a smoking room is so smelly so we told the bell boy again and we start to argue about it. At the end, we had been switch back to the first room again which is 350 for that night only and they will switch us to a bigger and a non smoking room on the next day.


Day 2 (22-03-09)

Woke at 7am and have our breakfast buffet in the hotel restaurant. About 8.30a.m went down to the lobby to find our tour guide who calls MADE KUNAWAN. We have our conversation in his Toyota Innova about what we want to see in Bali. Made told us that he is going to show us 50% of Bali and we agree with him. Bali road is very small the maximum lane is 2 lanes but you know their driving skill is so scary. 2 lanes can become 3 lanes. I realize that Balinese like to horn and I think there are 80% of the vehicles are TAXI.

The first stop of the journey is to watch the “Barong & Keris Dance” in Batubulan. It is the most colorful dance in Bali that telling about a fighting of good and bad spirit. It cost us about 50000 rupiah, tiffany and I feel very boring in that show because we don’t know what is it talking about? Before our 2nd stop we usually were going to the bird park but it is so expensive it cost us about Rm 85 per person we were frighten by the price and at the end we dint even want to entre the bird park. 2nd stop is Tohpati- batik factory. We went to the batik factory to watch how people make hand-made batik. After that we went to Celuk to see gold & silver factory, see how the smith make silver ring, earring and so on. The next stop is to see RICE TERRACE in Tegallalang. On the way to tegallalang we will pass by Mas- Village of wood carving and Batuan- balinese painting.

About 1.15pm we reached Kintamani hill where we see the amazing view of BATUR VOLCANO and its lake while we are having our lunch at the local restaurant. After our lunch we took a lot of picture with the beautiful batur volcano as our background and we continue our journey again. Along the way to Ubud monkey forest we stop by Seribatu to see the spices farm in Temen Village. In the spices farm we saw Bali coffee, fruits and Vanilla plant. Does anyone know that Vanilla is not a tree it is a creeper or a vine (攀爬植物) crops? We had a cup of ginger tea for free.

We continue our tour to Monkey forest. We had been told that don’t ware hats and glasses because those monkeys like to snatch things from people. Along the way to the middle of the point a monkey climb on my cousin tiffany and she shouts very loud. The naughty monkey hug (Climb) on her because a key that hang on the hand bag is making noise and the monkey wanted to play with it but at the end the monkey dint manage to snatch it and we quickly walk away from the monkey. 2 naughty monkey saw us and they show us under 18 cant watch de action (MAKING LOVE or F*CK). It is cute but also disgusting. The last stop is The King palace in a place call Warung in UBUD also. Went in to the palace to see for a while and heard a friend talking about the famous pork under the tree. When we reach there they were move to their home so we went over to the home that is selling BABI GULING (Food). It was delicious and I found that it is so interesting to have meal in people house. Bali was called by people “Island of 10.000 Temples” (or "Island of the Gods") because every home there will be their own temple inside their house and the size of the temple is depends on the size of that family.

These were what we had done in day 2. We reached hotel about 8pm and we got our new and bigger room (247). Take our shower and sleep.


Day 3 (23-03-09)

Same like day 2 woke at 7am and have our buffet breakfast and start our 2nd day tour again. This time we are going to Uluwatu, Nusa Dua and Tanah Lot. The first place we go of the day is NUSA DUA for some water sports. We reached Tanjung Benoa Beach at about 9.45am. We have make up over mind to see fishes with a glass bottom boat, Turtle Island to see turtle and take picture with those pity and huge turtle and have a 15 minute Jet Ski. This three activity cost us US$ 100.

Next, Made our tour guide took us to see the most romantic and beautiful beach in Uluwatu which is call “Dreamland” but we are unlucky because the beach is close by the owner or the government not sure, so we just stop by outside and take a picture of the huge statue only. We proceed to the gate of GWK (Garuda Wisnu Kencana) which explain by our tour guide in 1996 Indonesia government wanted to build a big statue like New York statue of Liberty, but at the end because of 1997 economic is going down so the government stop the project and the statue is done only the head. We dint go into GWK because the entrance fee is very expensive and we continue to the next stop “Uluwatu Holy Temple”. This Uluwatu Holy temple is built on the 16th century that located on the cliff above the Indian Ocean. Uluwatu Holy Temple another name is called the cliff temple. The cliff was very high and beautiful and we have to wear sarung to enter as a respect. We took few pictures there and continue to the last stop of the tour for that day which is Tanah Lot to see the Temple Tanah Lot, the unique old temple that built on the huge rock beside the Indian Ocean and get a great opportunity to see the stunning sunset view. Along the way to Tanah Lot, we stop for a famous drink “Avocado juce” that people told my cousin tiffany which was very delicious and nice.

We reached Tanah Lot about 4.30pm and we are a bit late because that day Balinese is having a praying ceremony for their new year which is called Nyepi Day or Silent Day. We had been told by our tour guide on their new year is a day that they can’t eat, drink, work and even lights are not allowed to switch on. Tourist who came to Bali for holiday on that day can’t go out from the hotel and they have to stay inside their room(TV volume have to me lower down and curtain of the room have to be close up if they wanted to switch on the lights). Nobody is allowed to be on the beach, road and streets.

About 6.15 pm we watch the beautiful sunset and we went back to Kuta hotel. We have a swim in the pool of the hotel and I realized that my hair became a rock (The water in the hotel is salty) and I hate the feel of my hair. After our shower, tiffany and I when down to buy a cup of Bali Mcflurry but is not tasty like MALAYSIA.

Day 4(24-03-09)

The Shopping Day. We walk around poppies lane 2 and have our breakfast in the famous restaurant called Poppies Restaurant. The restaurant is beautiful and quiet. After breakfast we continue our walk to kuta square and on that street is all famous and branded things like billabongs, nike, reebok and so on.

After walking around Kuta square we walk in to Matahari Mall. This is the place I bought some souvenirs for my friends. Hope they like it although I know is little cheap but it is still my heart to them. And the last shopping mall is “The Discovery Mall” nothing special in there. There is a SOGO and Roti Boy in Bali haha is it great. Oh, there is carefour and Giant too in Bali.

In the middle of the night, tiffany and I feel hungry and we went downstair to tapau some food to eat. We had tapau 1kg of sweet and sour crabs, fried rice with egg and chicken wings it cost us only 55000 rupiah. Tiffany got her avocado juice again in the store. She likes avocado juice very much. It this trip she had drunk 5 cups of avocado juice.

If you like the SUN, I think you will like Bali. For me is only Okay but not realy like there because is hot. I am there for 5 days and those 5 days not one day or one drop of rain came down from the sky and you can imagine that how hot is Bali?


Day 5 –Last Day in Bali(25-03-09)

Woke at 9am, have our breakfast in the hotel restaurant as usual. After breakfast went back to the room to pack our things and wait for our tour guide Made Kunawan to fetch us to the airport (Ngurah Rai International Airport).

The airport is just like a shopping mall than a airport. I think not one of the airports in the world can be like this. Aunt reminds us to use all the small changes of our rupiahs and tiffany has her last cup oh Avocado Juice again and I have a tuna sandwich. The flight is early about half and hour and we arrive early in LCCT too.

This is all about my journey in Bali. I have a wonderful Trip in Bali thanks to my aunt and my cousin Tiffany. Who wants to join me next trip? Haha

My WEEK ENDS !!!! (Fun Fun Fun..) Kite lesson..

This week end , went over to aunt house .
We have a little cook at night , although it is not very very delicious but we cook out nice food for aunt to eat too.
We cook steam eggs,double can of sweet corn soup & a drumstick ,vegetable,chinese sausage .
OoOoOo.... almost forgot our desert har.... laichee pudding and mango konyaku.. yam yam..

it is so nice to cook by ourself i myself feel very nice and fun but dono my 3 cousin ..
we were in the kitchen for 4 hours just for the 4 minit eating... haiz.. and 40 minit wash... haha... but not us(aunt)..
After dinner , we play scrabble ( we find word from the handphone dictionary) clever rite? hehe

2nd day, I woke at 1 am i think... hehe..
Went downstair and saw aunt came back from chrurch waiting for the "brunch" mean breakfast+lunch...
And i went in to the kitchen and my cousin busy making her "CHEESE+TUNA+uncook tomato+sausage".
when then "FOOD= Sandwich" came out hahaha so funny (they use microwave to cook the bread lah)..
But still very delicious because i am hungry i guess.. hehe..
At least everything is clear(HABIS).. this time i am the 1 that wash all the dishes..
after that we all went upstairs for a rest..
Almost about 4.30pm aunt brought us to the kepong big park for kite flying .... hahaha
This kite flying game is fun but felt sad because the kite doesnt flew at all... haiz.... disappointed..
The time when i saw all the kites are flying in the sky it was so beautiful and something came into my mind..
Its was like if there is no wind at all the kite cant fly... just like if there is no dady mumy and i wont be here in this world..
Instead of that if we want to fly a kite we have to tie a string on the kite .. and this was like "friendship" we have to help each and other out ... then this is the real kind of life we have to go through...
Another things is ... if there is wind your kite can fly higher and higher,but there is no wind at all you the kite doesnt fly at all.... this show everybody luck and come and go easyly ...
Just a simple kite lesson teaches me lots of things but dono who can understand it but i do..

My Dear Wee ~~

Hi dear , after 10.25 you are going start your tiring journey loh.
You know ? Just know in the phone i realy got many things want to tell and ask ( I even wrote it all in a paper).
But you know , every time every phone call i made to you my i cant even use the script.
And you know? When we were talking , my tears had drop !!
I quickly pretend that i am coughing because i scare you heard my crying voice.
Ya my heart say 3 years very fast de but everyone have the same "thinking" actualy is long enough for us.
Damn !!! ( My tears are coming again)

I am not going to say "Sorry" & " Thanks" to you anymore because of " TFR ".
I am happy and glad that my dear you remember about "TFR".
I was so shock that , that day you use this word.
I will never say " Friends Forever" because you will only be my "DEAR" .
We meet because of "Faith".
We be friends because of our "Heart".
Remember !! Whatever you do must use your heart to do.
Everything will be ok and fine in the end .
Looking forward to see you in December !!! ( we go play play arr !!)
Have a nice trip my dear ............
"ONE WAY SMOOTH WIND" you teach de ....

放下不舍！！

看着你们一个一个的出国读书，真的有点不舍。
可是，不代表我不让你们走。
前途对我们来讲真的很重要。
就先忍一忍吧。
放下我们的友情。
放下所有的的不舍，就将完成我们的前途吧。
几年后，我们就能得到我们要的结果。
友情的背后本来就有很大的牺牲。
就先牺牲一下下吧。

祝你们前途无量

许下的承诺原来到最后没人会记得。

人呢，最讨厌的地方就是许下了承诺却做不到，也记不起。
如果是这样的结局，倒不如别答应也别许下承诺。
为什么突然那么讲？
这几天，实在是太得空了。
就在这几天，突然想起一件事。
记得在4年前，我给了好几位一个金黄色的一块硬币。
也说了一些话，我说这一块硬币现在不是你们的，在10年后一定要给我看，看了后才是他们的。
给他们的原应是为了以后记得对方的存在，也有一个借口见下对方。
可是，10年还没到他们竟然忘记了。
我不是生气，也不是在埋怨。
只是觉得年轻人真的不能轻易的许下承诺。
尤其是现在一对一对的情侣。
一旦许下了承诺，就要记得你许下了一个怎么样的承诺，和谁许的承诺？

我记得，在几个月前我也答应了一个人，在我开始工作时如果有能力的话我会买一架新的（XX）给她。
不知她自己还记得吗？
我讲得出一定做得到。

不知世上有多少个，真正能完成他们许下的承诺呢？
你？我？他/她？
没人知！！
希望从今天起你们别许下一个空头承诺。

在此也祝各位“情人节快乐”。

Feel tired in everythings !!!

Tired,tired,tired!!!!
I wana shout out all my things but i doesnt feel right here !!
I want some support from someone.
I want help from someone.
I want love from someone.
I want smile from someone.
I want happiness from someone.
I want apologise from someone.
I want everything that you all have.
I take things serious but you take it inserious.
What can i do !! Just feel tired to everythings now !!

你我的距离又远了！！

不知从几时开始，彼此的距离开始远了。
距离真的是我们之间的问题吗？
本人觉得是！！
距离真的是一个很大的问题！！
我计较我们彼此的关系是因为我注重我们的关系，而你却嫌我“烦”！！
心碎到不能再碎的阶段了。
在不行动，恐怕太迟了！！

This paragraph is true !!
I rise my hands and believe it !!!
But how many of you will rise your hand too ?

原来身边的每一位都让我大开眼界！！

到了今天，我才知道原来我身边原来有那么多位的朋友是那么“有钱”的。
在我身边的朋友，没十个都有九个都是“有钱”的，而剩下的那一个就是“我”这种家庭背景的人，说有钱不有钱，说没钱又不是。是中等的那种。
我从来没怨过，没怨过为什么我爸妈没钱。
没怨过，为什么我的家庭背景不能有钱一点。
没怨过，为什么老天要安排我到一个没钱的家庭！！
我很喜欢现在这个家！我爱我的家人！
我们虽然穷，可是我们穷得有骨气~~~ （抄的）

现在让我来讲讲我今天的行程。
今天只有一堂课，上课是（8am-10am）。
一放学我们就去交我们的assignment，然后就去吃点心+捞生。
原本我们都以为是AA式的，到最后是我一个朋友给。
吃完后，我们就到给钱那位朋友的家玩。

一到他家门口，我们的嘴巴全都开得大大的。
为什么？只是因为他家实在非常的大。
而且，大门前有个很大只的狗在门前。
进到他家时跟夸张，尽然有 pool table,karaoke 房，soccer table, sauna room, Wii,3 Psp ，N 架plasma Tv, PS2，Gim room , 妈妈的更衣室，主人房还有 Jaguci 。
这一切一切都让我们目瞪口呆了。
你有这样的朋友吗？
我就有啦！！
是件好事吗？
对我来说，我自己也不知!!
有人可以告诉我吗？

这只是第一位，后面还有跟多！！！
朋友你是吗？

Still cant even put down !!!

This year is 2nd year liao !!!
Why cant i put you all down and continue my life by my own ?
Am i taking things too hard ?
Whatever happen you all still my buddy right ?
Now all of us one by one are getting far and far to each other!!
Nobody knows what happen in the future but the only memories we know !!
Times realy fly very fast !!!
Do anyone know how many years that we know each other by now?
Do anyone know how we meet ?
Do anyone know how deep is our relationship?
Do anyone know how important you are in my heart?
Wow !!! Asking question again !!!
Just little thinking of my own !!!
Sometimes if only one off you take action and the other doesnt , it is an extra and stupid action you have taken !!!
Like people said one hand doest have sound !!!
I know not everyone can 100% be a good friend or a buddy but we have to try to be at least 99.9% right ?
Wahaha, do you agree this time ?
Am i thinking as a grown up now?
We meet is a kind of faith!!
We be friends is a kind of action !!
We think about each other is a kind of memories !!
Many of you are going out to continue your studies , all the best to all of you here !!
Wish we can meet few years later when we are out in the "International University" = "The World" !!!

Not feeling Well !!!

Feel very tired although just 2 hour class !!
Feel not very well this few days because i am having a bad cough !!!
Feel painful because of the swollen throat !!
Painful lah !!!!
I want mumy !!! mumy i miss you so so much leh !!!
Dady i want medicine !!!
Now dont have this kind of things happen on me !!!
Buy your own medicine and take it lah !!!
Take care yourself lah !!!

Wow !!! everythings disappear when we are older !!!
Haiz.. is it a good reason now?
Haha !!!

Every year de sickness is back !!!

Haiz, start sick again loh !!!
Why every year also like this de !!!
Realy every year also this few month sick de oh !!
What happen lah ..... I want to eat many things also cant eat because i am sick !!!
Very Cham lah !!!

Haiz... assignment haven start also ....
Dono how to do lah !!! who can teach leh?
I wana die d !!! Die Die Die

The First Day of Chinese New Year !!

Gong Xi Fa Cai !!!!
Happy Chinese New Year to all of you !!!!
Today was a great day but tired !!!
Last 2 days , clean my room and my mum room but unfortunenately hurt my arm (pain liao 2 days !!!
BUt little quiet here , little unconfortable because of it !!!
Jadi people de ah 4 and driver the whole day now finaly can relax sit in front of my cousin computer to relax...
HOpe that i can finish my assignment as soon as possible by this few days if not i realy die in it de loh !!! Have to study again .. haiz...... i wana shout out lah !!!!
But who knows what am i thinking leh ?
WHere is the guy that know me ?

Last day in KL before CNY !!!

YEay, will be flying back 2moro ...
Cant believe that !!!
Omg , have to wake up at 4.30am 2moro morning, because my flight is 7am i have to go airport 2 hours b4 the flight ..
My long journey is back again ... But like very " DAI ZHAN JIONG" !!!
Why i said like this is because 2 cars are coming to tawau to fetch 3 of us ...
Said is fetch us but the real reason is bring my england auntie to tawau to have a look .
7 am departure from kl LCCT,arrive tawau international airport at 10am.
After that depart from tawau and arrive Lahad Datu .....
4 and a half hours journey !!!
HAven start the journey , i feel very tired d !!!
Hope that this year CNY, i have a happy new year than last year....

WIsh all my friends Happy Chinese New Year!!!

New chinese calender is here and its going to change my "Life" !!

Although just little of you forgive me but i am happy ,because at least i try my best to get your forgiveness.
New chinese calender is roling towards us , that means there will be a new page coming through my life again. This year the "mouse" year is a year that i learn many things. Hope that the "OX" year i can learn more than that .

Learn to thanks people.
Learn to forgive people.
Learn to let go people.
Learn to appreciate people.
Learn to do things right.
Learn to think negatively.
Learn to be an aldult.
Learn to love someone that is worth to be love.
Learn to be a good girl.
Learn to be a good child.
Learn to be a good friend.
Learn to be a good student.
Learn whatever i wanted to learn in my life.

[Appreciate things are important, but sometimes when it is over , everythings turn to be "GAMEOVER" !!
Dont do things that you think that you can climb up to people head.
People feel that is a greedy action and stupid thinking .
Try to be smart but not sily , everything will be fine without stupid ideas and thinkings.]
THanks for the people that teach me all of these. This is the conclusion i made up .

B4 CNY , I want to say "sorry" !!

I want to say sorry to everyone for my foolish atitude.
I want to say sorry to my friends about those annoying Sms.
I want to say sorry for those childish thinking.
I want to say sorry for what i have done that is wrong in the pass.
I want to say sorry because i realy want to try hard to change myself.
I want to say sorry because i realy am a annoying friend.
I want to say sorry to you my dear friend that i am realy sorry .
I want to say sorry to you my dear family that i will try to change again and agian.
I want to say sorry of my idiot thinkings on you all.
I want to say sorry of pushing all the responsibility on you all.

I want you all to forgive me before Chinese New Year.

"Chia" Family is in bad luck !!

This few days many things happen on my family member...
The first was my 3rd uncle pass away on tuesday morning..
Yesterday , my 2nd uncle "Cirit Birit".
Today my 6th uncle fall down and hurt his back and the last my dad bang his head !!!
Everything just come too fast , i cant accept it ...
Dont know who is the next again .... it can be me or my family member again ...
Hope that after CNY all those back luck will be going away and doesnt come back again..
Shuh SHuh SHuh , get away from our family ...
We hate bad lucks..........

Even you are 1 of them !!!

From the begining i thought that you are special from them, but now i can call myself to believe that you are not ....
You realy make me so disapointed ...
When you are in trouble , you will find me ..
If nothing happen ,haah... i am just a tree that standing in front of your house...
If you need something to lean on you will find me as your tree or your wall..
And now when i need you to lean on , even your shadow you also bring away ...

真的不敢相信原来我一个知心朋友也没有！！
连你/妳也包括在内！！我看我要开始收回我对你们全部的承诺了，"Friends Forever" 我呸！！世界没有那么完美的事！我的朋友只有我自己！
回想起我以前真的很笨，尽然相信朋友大过亲人。

看来"BLOG"在也帮不了我了，记得第一天我开始写时真的很有用，都会有人来关心！
到了现在，写了等于没有写。
开始不想再写这些无聊的东西了！！
想和你/妳谈下天，你又不愿意！！
Haiz,心灰意冷了！实在太令我失望了！！

Lonely !!!!!

开始觉得一个人在房间里真的很孤单，想找人说下心事也没有！！
开始会像以前在宿舍，4个人一间房有说有笑得不知多么的开心.
开始想念我那班同房过的房友，想念我们以前在房间里做的每一件事。

到了现在，看见自己坐在一个小房间里只有那4面墙真的很孤单.

看看再那么“大”的房间里能做得了什么呢？

我又要开始我的歪思想了，记得有一个人每次都回来骂我，她每次都会说别想太多啦你！

我每次都回答：是啦是啦！！

可是你们试想下在哪一样的房间里，除了睡觉，上网，我还能做什么呢？

当一个人有太多的时间时，他一定会开始无思乱想的。

我现在就刚好达到那个时间了，开始觉得身边的朋友不知去了哪里？

他们为什么都不找我呢？当我需要它们时，他们一个都不会出现。

当我不需要它们时，他们偏偏便一大班来找我。

你说是老天爷在玩我吗？还是那些朋友玩我呢？

事到如今，我也只能在这发泄发泄。

发泄了也没人会管我，真是做人难！！！

我人生中的标点符号！！

我人生中的标点符号！！
人生说长不长，说短不短。
一转眼，我已经度过了18年的岁月！！
第19年在刚起步而已，希望这次得起步会有更多的回忆。
今天，想回忆一下我前六年的点点滴滴（所认识的好朋友或朋友）。

2003-2005( LD- SMC)
2003- Dana Ho
I know Dana since primary school but that time we just know each other name but not that good as we are in secondary school . But until end of the year don't know what happen to us our relationship become worst and worst . 2nd year , dana move over to kian kok to continue her study and me still studying in SMC . Until 2006, i meet here back in kk and we are friends again .

2004- Jossie Ng
I know Jossie since primary school too , the situation is same as dana . When 2nd year dana when over to kk , i start to find a friend and i had choosen jossie . But until the end of the year again , something happen between us again our relationship became broken once again . And until today , luckily we are friends again not a simple friend . We are good friends that can talk what ever we think .

2005- Yvonne Lim
Yvonne is a funny and cute girl , we know each other since we study in the same school in lahad datu but over friendship started in the year "2005". In the year , because i dont have a friend at all and i start my mission once again to find a new buddy friend. Yvonne was the choosen one. We are very very friends , can said like a couple but we are not lesbian dont think negatively lah . Why i said our relationship like couple because almost every night we will phone each othe and can said that what topic we also can talk about even can talk about our siblings. When 2005 is going to end , we make a decision to go over KK to continue our senior year together. The next year 2006, we realy when over to Kian kok Middle school to study. We stay in the school hostel and we stay in the same room too. But in this year, i am so idiot that i make a stupid decision ( Nobody knows except us) . I wanted to say sorry to you yvonne that i realy make a big mistake that mess up over relationship. I remember that a word that you use to describe me " 2 face people" . Yes, i can tell you that ,that year i realy is that kind of people because i realy dont know which side should i trust. But i can tell you that , from 2007 that year onwards my life has change because of that things happen on us. I want to say " sorry" to you again , hope that you realy forgive me . Our friendship will start on a new page again, Friendship will never end till the day we leave this world.

2006-2007 (KK- KKMS)
2006- Teo Chia Wee ( Jessie)
The most special friend that i ever meet . We know each other since january-02-2006, why i can remember that clear? Haha, this can be a long long story. We stay in the same room(hostel) , the room number is 4.2 . Not only the same room , the same bed too ( Double decker bed). Wee was a good student and almost the whole school know who is she , this is because she took part in many competition in school like speaking test and blur blur blur .....
At first , i dont even dare to talk to her because her face looks like very fierce like will eat people but after few months i realise that she is very friendly and a helpful person. She teach me maths and chinese when i doesnt know what is those topics are? The special about us was nothing happen on us at all , is different from the 3 best friend( Dana,Jossie & Yvonne) that i make in junior time
. I am happy that our relationship is that special than others, may be she is not like those friend that same class with me , sit beside me in class, eat lunch with me or even chit chat with me in class when teacher is teaching. All of this she never do with me , but she study with me every night in night class, eat breakfast and dinner with me almost everyday, sleep on the same double decker bed, share the same toilet to bath(sometimes she snatch my toilet to bath when i go back late), sleep very early (9.45pm-10pm) she will be lying on her bed and i force to sleep that early too wakaka.. wake at (5.45am) because she wake at (5.30am every mornig). But i feel very happy that my life is so " fully book" haha because everyday my time are fixed. Wanted to say " Thank You" to you my dear for being my friend. May be this is our faith that the god make for us. Do you think that our " Friendship" can last for long long long time ?

2006-Rosalin
Rosalin age is bigger than me 2 years but we have a great " memories" between us . The same thing is , we were staying in the same room too (4.2) but she move in about May. Rosalin suppose to stay with a girl but the girl suddenly move out and yvonne move to the next room because of something had happen that i mention just now , so rosalin move in to the same room with me . We play together everyday too!! She is a tough girl, she is not a malaysian but she study very very hard to get good results. Her family background is not very good , thats why she study that hard to go in to university in malaysia. But till today, i still cant find where is she at all.

2007-Ah june ( Chin Ying June )
I know June since 2006 , we study in the same class in that year but our conversation in class was very little till 2007 we are in the same class again . At first i doesnt sit beside to her, the girl that sit beside to me is winnie liew. The friendship of us is because of me again, i am the one that mess things up every time. June and i , is good friend in class.. what time of non sense we also talk together and 38 together. June account was profesional , wakaka i always take her homework to copy de ... hehe

2007- Winnie Liew
As i said before i sit with june , i use to sit with winnie in class. Because of my stupid idiot thinking i mess up our relationship again and agian . By now nothing that i can said to her , the thing that i can said to her is just 1 word " Sorry". Sorry that i am so childish last time , hope that you can forgive me .

2008- Sali ng
I know her since 2007 but our friendship just started from last year 2008. Cute relationship right? A funny girl that i ever seen in my life. At first she was very scary because she always scold people because of people wake her up when she was sleeping. But when you know her style by now , she was a kind girl and a friendly girl. Sometimes her words that she spoke will be very funny and cute because she like too " boom " people very straight. I dont mind because i know her style. Haha, i dont even know how to describe her anymore.

2008- Hok Thiem Yiek
Know him since junior 3, remember the first day in school. When we saw him standing outside of our class j3R , we thought that he stand in the wrong class but all the books he is holding is all the same with us ( all are J3 books). I still remember that the whole class of j3R hate him very much because he like to " Sien" haha...
But after that (2007) almost end of the year , we became friends ..
What also tell each other , he told me that his family and his situation..
He is a good boy and he doesnt have close friends too ... but i think now he had many friends than me now... hehe ....
2008 .... long story about us hahaha.... friend i think only few of us know lah hahaha.....
Friends Forever again ya !!! hehehe

2008- ( Estee,Rennie,Lena & Siet nee )
How can i decribe them? They are my buddy in college. We eat together in school, sit together, hang out together,shopping together and study together .
Nothing special happen to us last year.

2009- ?
What will be happening this year ?
The answer that i will said is " I don't Know".
Nobodys know what will happen this year !!

The only things that i know is , I want to have many many friends!!
I like to hang out with friends !
Who wants to be my pal ? Come and register lah !!
I am waiting liao!!!

Of course there are more friends that i meet too...
Such as, kah yee ( Dady), EVa, poh yee,Ivan and HOK.
Shanny i will not forget you too my K mum!!! hehe

Little Scary !!!

Now life is so short , just heard how my uncle pass away !!
He was reading a newspaper in the office and suddenly die !!!
"LIfe" is so "FRAGILE" nowadays !!
I am scare , very scare one of the day one of my family members will be like this suddenly !!
I think i cant accept it and i will suicide too...
I dono if realy one of the day it happen to me ,how many of my friends and family will come over to talk to me ?
I realy confuse , very confuse!!
I think from today onwards i will be very careful and i will love all of you like i love myself !!!
I will try all my best to love you all by now !!
Trust me i think i can do that !!

Uncle pass away !!

Today when i was on the way to school , i receive a mesag from dad "your 3rd uncle pass away just now 9.17am " . Was little shyok but is not the same feeling, that the meseg i receive 2 year before " Your cousin pass away this afternoon" .

If you ask me why ? I will answer you " I DON'T KNOW" !!!

I think is because of our relationship !!!

My cousin and i was closer and my uncle and i ,i just can said that every year i think only can meet each other 1 or 2 times !!

This i think is my answer !! I feel a little pity to my uncle family and i wana say " Condolences" here to them !

Genting Theme Park ( Chocalate wonderland )

wakaka !!! The Door to the chocalate world !!

The Small rollercoster !!! wakaka

In the Chocalate world !!

Hehehe..... Wei & Me took on the marry go round !!!

To photo that i took !!! "SS" wakaka

The whole body is pain n tired !!!

On friday when to genting and go in to theme park just play for 3 hours and cost me rm 38 !!
When down on saturday 12.30pm but still cant go home !!
Because of somebody i have to stay back in One utama extra 4 hours !!
My leg is pain n my hand is pain too ...

Just back from auntie house and feel very tired today !!
Will post my picture when i get it from my cousin !!!
I wana sleep now !!!
haiz ...

Should i study Investment or E-commerce ??

The lecturer like children , just reading those notes to us like we doesn't know how to read !!

E-commerce like very hard also !!!

Haiz..... who can give me some idea i realy headache d !!!

My god .... realy wana burse d !!!

Wahaha, mumy today arrive kl d but dono wana go and meet her or not !!!

just 2 days, dono why i got those home sick de feeling oh ?

May be i am big enough to think already , i think i realy am old d !!

This year i am already 19 years old , must learn to think, talk and act like an adult !!

Have to change all my atitude by now ..... realy have to ....

Must try my best but i dono i myself can do it or not but i hope i realy can !!!

Worrying my School fees !!

Now i am starting to worry about my school fees !

My school fees is getting expensive and expensive , and i cant get 30% off because i study in kota kinabalu !!

If i realy wanted to finish of my degree as while i need about rm 8xxxx .

My big brother is coming out soon , i have to think wheather my parents have the money to affort me and my brother next year ...

Hope to get discount from the school but dono can or not !!

This problem just making me worry and worry !!

I cant even sleep well because of this problem ...

I need money , money and money !!!

Who can give me money ???

I realy need money to finish off my education !!!

Happy and feel sweet !!!

Happy that all my friends know yesterday i am coming

back from LD to KL !!!

The first mesej was a unexpectable person send to me !!

THat was my dear "WEE" haha !!!

Have a little syok that she remember that when i am going back !!

Other than that my kl friends also knows that send me some greeting too !!

On January 02 , i have a gathering with some of my old friends in Red apple(LD) !!

Just a short 4 hours time we create liao a club name "90'Club" !!

Adviser:雪妮老师 Shanny Wong
President:张嘉正 Levi Chong
Vice-President:谢燕欣 Selena Chia
Treasurer:张芹华 Eva Chong
Member:所有90年的朋友们

This club is just a small little tiny club !!

The purpose that we create this club is just because of a small little red notes "rm10" !!

This rm10 came from the money that we pay more for our meals and we doesn't know how to split the money to all of us so we decide to create it at that time !!

We wanted to have this club so that next time we can have our gathering again and again !!

We wanted to keep in touch to each other !!

We wanted to remember and memories all our memory that we play,eat,sleep or exam together !

This all is just a perfect memory to us !!

IF one day someone come over and said dont make friends with others i think i will suicide, because live in this world doesnt even have friends it is not meaningful at all !!

I want to thanks all my friends for being my pal !!

Love all of u !!

2009 de first day i am back in KL !!

Today is my first day back to kl on 2009 !!
Feel little happy that i am back , because hometown realy make me feel bored like wana become mushroom d !!
This morning woke at 5.50am early in the morning and get on LDtour bus to tawau airport !!
Arrive tawau about 8.15am and check in at 9.00am !!
Have my breakfast at 9.15am and boarding at 9.45am !!
10.00am ready for board !!
1.15pm arrive Lcct and arrive home at about 2.00pm !!
Get settle down all my things !!
And now writting my new blog here !!