21 June 2011 One Day after HK trip ..

Wow, it had been long time that i didnt write my blog.

Today suddenly feel like writing dont know why.

Hk trip is my 2nd trip with my sisters haha.. its quite a nice trip with both of them ..

after the trip it makes me more sayang them because how also i know them more again in between the trip especially the oldest one.. haha... hope that after degree life our relationship will keep it like this too la...

28 dec 2010 - A bad day

Yesterday, i receive a call from bro says thats baby is flying to kk because his blood had diseases .

After that, i was so so so worry about him.

My mood direct become bad and worrying him.

After class, someone keep rush me to print her notes bcoz she need to go home early..

I am already so bad mood that time , and there is where i hurt her, the first and only time that i hurt her... haiz...

Pls dont play when i am in bad mood , today i hurt ur mouth 2moro might be your eyes my dear..

I feel so so guilty after hurting you.. can say is heart painful after hurting you..

Seeing myself hurting someone that i Love is so painful..

Sorry for hurting you, i didnt meant to hurt you..

I swear i never hurt you anymore...

Hope Baby will be okay soon...

Hope you will be okay too...

Love you baby and my dear..

Sorry for what i had did..

I have Many Things to Say but I controlled Myself ~

There is alot of things that i wanted to share but I controlled myself to stop posting ...

I want to be someone who shares among my own ~

I dont want Ppl to Know how i feel of them and i dont want ppl to know what am i thinking now.

What is happening now is what i plan myself ....

I feel so lonely now .. I need someone who really know me well to cure me up..

But there is a bad news that THERE IS NO ONE for ME !!

EVeryone is wearing their own mask to face me .. SO DO i ???

I just want to be ALONE , I want to be ALONE , I am trying hard ...

But my heart is struggling hard here ... Keep making me feeling of going out no matter what kind of plan is that...

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Day Of your Big day (12/11/2010)

That day i am so tired so i didn't manage to write ...

It was an exiting day for me that day because the whole day i wanted to tell you so many things that i know but i cant. If i say it to you means that it wont be a surprise anymore.

Hahaha... Let me tell you the whole story by writing down word by word .

2 weeks ago (2/11/2010) in audit class i sms your bf to ask do he have any plan for your birthday.

He replied and say "No" so i told him that i need his help because you told me that you wanted to have a surprise party from january 2010.

Other than that, i also told him that i cant give you a surprise party if you dont give me your Birthday Original day and this is also the one i always mention to you.

But luckily that you keep say NO NO NO ~ and Because of this NO's ~

I get to plan your surprise party.

Within the weeks~ My friends they all , all helped me in asking so many weird question but you are not clever enough to suspect them. Thanks to them so so much.

Eg. Alan & sherryn : Rennie you like to eat Secret recipe cake or not ?

Siet nee : You and your Bf go where celebrate oh ?

Me: Too many question ask by me d ... i cant even recall at all... The most cute one is " Come and join us in Murni after your dinner la" ~~ LOL.....

Actually Many of them had said so many things that you can guess what are we doing already but dono why you didnt realise or may be you already knw but you just pretend?

Next, Steal Key Mission ~~ Hahahahaha....

Early in the morning, sms you and siet nee that says i want to eat breakfast (this is real gastric de not cheating you ).

And this made up a good chance for me to steal.

When you went to buy nasi lemak for me, i quickly give signal to ming yee to let her know buy slowly. hahaha and keep talk to you to avoid you looking at what am i doing.

At that time i keep search for that damn key in the bag, but i cant find it. Luckily i am clever enough to find it in the outside pocket of the bag... hahaha...

After taking key, its already Mapi class. Went mapi class as usual and luckily it end early.

Told all of you that i need to rush and meet a friend of mine before MA lecture actually i am rushing to your car to set up my game . ( Place the card on your driving seat, place the present on the back of your car which you cant find it because you are "CLEVER") hahahaha.....

In MA class, i also sms to confirm the time and place we are going with your bf.

I still remember i ask that did he told you that we are giving you a surprise party, he say no.

Other than that, he call me not to be nervous otherwise the surprise party wont be going on smoothly.. hahahaha...

Hahaha... The small card is a trick to you actually. Purposely make for you to feel that we really didnt buy present to you.

After class, You called and ask that time i am happy already because my plan works for 30% already. Hahaha... Even though i know that at night we are meeting up but still i wanted to make it like we are not until meeting up each other until the next day. Keep ask you to join us for tea at night. Pretend that the food list you give me is damn expensive . And so so on...

Until at night, your bf sms me and told me that you two have arrive. I started to get so nervous. Nervous that you will be mad at me. Even hold something i also shivering haiz... i also dono why.. hahahaha.... Even place the candle also place wrongly haha... so cute leh.... Once we enter the restaurant , i saw your face like that.. i know that my plan works already but i am not lucky enough to make you CRY because of happy , but i always lucky enough to make you CRYbecause you are painful. Hahahaha....

PLAN so many things just to Made my promise to you. I will try my best for next year one again K? hahaha...

As for the present, As i say in it i really dont know will you like it but its still my " Heart" Work k ?? I use up to almost 1 month to prepare everything. When i heard you say what your mum says , I am already happy to heard that word. I know what i waste is not wasted anymore but it is worth already.

Hope this year Birthday , really is your happiest birthday celebration la. Next year got chance of not also dono la... So just Wait and see what is my decision la... Hahahaha...

Btw you owe me one surprise party oh~~ hahahaha

4 days Ago ~~ ( 16/08/2010) Change My life

4 Days ago i saw a big Surprise by myself on the internet myself.
The big surprise is what i wanted, wished, and aim for by the beggining of the semester.
At last i achive my target and get what i had wished for.
I shouted and jumped up high when i saw my result.
Yes !!!! I get 3 A's and 2 B's for my last semester. Unbelievable.

Business Law- B-

International Business- B

Strategic Management- A-

Public Relation - A-

International Marketing - A

Wow ~~ What is this ? This is Flying Colours...

I now really know what is the feeling of getting Good Result although is really stress and tired between the process but i enjoy the time when i get the result.

I am not the only one feels happy but my parents is proud of me too.

I will definitely Good results again for my Degree.. No matter how hard and difficult it is? I will try all my best to do it.

You can do it Selena , i told myself. I wish i really could.

Thanks To all my friends especially the one who keep nag me in class .

Rennie: Thanks for nagging me and support me in class.

Siet nee: Thanks for helping me when i am in troubles.

Gladys: Thanks for telling me sweet things to encourage me.

Lena: You are always the best one . Thanks for believing in me and always says that i will get what i wish for.

Ying Yen: Thanks for supporting me although you are also having problems.

Estee: Thanks for helping when i have problems..

You all are just too perfect to me. Hope all of us have a good time again in our Degree Life.

My Thoughts Are All Wrong ~~~

Why is everything happening to me ??
I just want to be a normal girl that have friends, have family , have my own life...
Why always i need to face something that i doesnt want to face???
Problems starts from many years ago...

Why is it , i cant find someone who can be friend with me for life??
In the beginning , i thought you will be special than others... i thought that i didnt choose wrong..
But in the end , i realise that i am wrong , wrong , wrong... You are not the one i am seaching for.
Its been 4 years... this four years you are fooling me ...
I know sometimes i may b to over... if you dont like pls tell me personally dont keep quiet pls..

Now, you walk out from my heart and someone walks in again....
This time i will try not to treat you like someone i treat 4 years ago...
My style had change but my heart purpose didnt change at all...
need to get some ready for next heart painful process again...
WHy cant life just be easy .. send someone that treasure me more than i treasure them...
If it really have , my life wont be that bad as now...

If you know you are the one that i treasure so much now.. Pls try not to hurt me..
I definetly will cry once more if you do....
Haiz..... Friendships forever never appear anymore...
I try to make things differently ... but bcoz my action do that ,.. things goes even worst...
Is this fair to me ??? I use 100% of heart and i never hope for anything... haiz...

Assignment"s" week ~~

This week will be assignments week....
Everyone rushing assignments and having thier own temper....
I know when everyone rushing assignments will have bad temper...
But i am not your assignment so dont show temper to me...

After assignments exam here again....
haiz... i need to study hard already la... i need the 30% off...
Time flies very fast.. cant believe it ..
I am now enjoying everyday i had in college..
Enjoying every moment i have with my friends....

I guess this sem everybody are crazy....
Anything can be "SUE" we will say sue .. hahahaha
Today when i am having my LAW lecture class.. I mention the "SUE" word again...

Rennie wrote on my paper says that "Start from now you speak english to me okay??" "Promise me?"
I replied(Write on the paper) : " No, i dont want to promise because if i promise and when you cant do it you can sue me" LOL.....
She laugh again... hahahahaha....

AIyor , guys we better say sue here and there... if not wrong i have many sms are talking about i sue you if you broke the promise, you sue me dono. what what what de....
LOL..... we are totally crazy ..... hahahahaha

But its good that we can use what we had learn ... hahahaha....
Looking forward to my second trip to TAIWAN... agrr.. i am going to be broke again ~~~ Yaiks...

I better sleep nw.. its 1am already ... hehe

Last Semester - Last Mid term in DIB !!

Yesterday 27/05/2010 is the last day and last sem of my mid term exam in Taylor DIB....

Am i happy with it ?? If you are refering to exam of coz yes .. i have go through 7 sems mid term so tiredly.... need to burn mid night oil all the way long......

But if you are refering am i enjoying my time with my college friends ?? Of coz yes la .. they are super duper nice friends that i meet ....

Woke so damn early yesterday morning just because i haven study my IB and PR....

7am left home to college , 9am have my IB exam then have 4 hours break...

All of us study in a classroom and get chase out by lecturer just because they have class there.. Shame.... hahaha

2pm have PR exam again until 3pm...

Before PR exam all of us keep says can the clock now become 3pm ?? hahaha...

After exam all of us finally took a deep breath and say "Huuuuh... finally" hahahaha...

3.20pm rush back to ss15 to take konyaku... err... unbelieveable.. RENNIE call me to drive .. say real i dont even dare to drive de actually but just because she trusted me.. so DRIVE lo.... haha

Take things , park car... and deh deh deh.... Finally leave ss15 at 425pm if not mistaken....

reach siet nee house at about 510pm.. just because there is a little jam when we are on the road....

Kilingkalang.... reach siet nee house ... move all the things down the car.....

wait siet nee to finish her shower, online for few minuites...

and then drove off to buy things at 6pm until 6.35 pm then reach siet nee house again....

start arranging things again ... and wait wait wait for the rest to arrive...

Finally we cant wait and get started to eat hahahaha....

Others arrive at almost 9pm... and we get started for 2nd round again.. but i am so damn full that time...

Ah... i miss siet nee grandma curry laksa... it was so delicious but i am so damn full that time...

Siet nee still ask me " Delicious or not ?? dont say it because is my grandma cook de then say delisious".... My dear.. really delicious la.. is just i am so full that time... hehehehe

Play, eat , laugh, fight, take picture, bit, hug, see, sit, stand, open wine, sleep, what we can we do .. we all do... hahahahaha

Have a great day yesterday ....

Reach home at 12.35am...

Cant stand the tiredness so went home early but the rest still in siet nee house until 2am ++..

I guess everyone today enjoy thier sleep...

I sleep from 2am until 2pm this afternoon....

when i wake up i remember that someone call but i dont really remmeber what did i say on the phone ... hahahaha....

Have a nice sleep .. bateri recharge till 100% already... hahahaha

Hope that in the future we will have lots of this kind party la ... ENJOY what WE have and WHAT we GOt now.... hehehe .....

LOVE you guys ...

To : Dear Estee

Estee , estee , estee ~~ Hahahah... you are the last liao ..
Finally i done my BLOG !! hehehe...
Err... Where do we meet ? I guess you are clear than me de la hoh ??
Hahahahaha..... But i still need to say de ..hehe

Aiya .. we meet about in the second week of sem 1 ... outside tbs lift..
You guys make me feel wierd when you all ask " you know how to speak chinese de ah "
Should ask you all "do i really look alike a BANANA" hahahaha..
By the way , i am happy that i look like BANANA coz my english is good ~~ hahahaha

I guess you and me is the one who have a deep relationship together lo ..
You know de la .. We always fight to each other .. haha
But leh .. always i am the one is wrong de ... But did you think back is who wrong actually ?
I guess you ask me now , i also dono how to answer coz i really dono who wrong .. hahaha
Aiya , nvm la .. That is past tense jor .. now we look at present tense de hehehehe...

Wah , i guess i am the lucky on that you like to share your happiness,
sadness or others to me leh...
Hehehehe... I hope after diploma you still can find such friend lo.. But if you cant find still got me .. hehehe.. Remember dont stand too strong ...coz we are small..Although we are the one right ... the adults will always sat they are the one the right one.. i guess you also know lo...
As i say , i cant say too much to you coz this is your family problem.. but i can be your listener ..
Hope you can keep it up ... TRY not to STAND so STRONG ya .... if not you are the one get hurt ...
Be clever ya .. dont hurt yourself anymore... you also know your heart cant effort liao de lo ..
Cry liao heart painful right ?? Try not to cry .. SELENA heart painful also when see or hear you cry .... Seriously .. I scare my friend cry de leh ~~ hahahaha....
Hope you get what i want to say la .....

GANBATEH my DEAR ESTEE !!! All the BEST to you TOO ~~ hehehehe

To : Dear Ying Yen

Hi my friend , Got feel exited or not leh ??

Today your turn le woh ... hahaha

Aiya .. dont worry ... you will feel nice to laugh de.. hahaha ..Hope so la ..

Okay like usual, how do we meet ?? When do we meet ??

Sorry that i cant remember the exact date but somehow i remember is the 2nd week of first sem la...

I remember that , you and sherryn that time is in the same geng one ..

We meet in tbs de lift there de ...

The first thing you all ask me is " You know how to speak chinese ah ?" lol..

The first impression for me is that " DO i really look like a BANANA to you all ?" LOL..

What did i reply you all , i still can remember leh .. hahaha...

I replied " Of coz i know how to speak chinese la , i am chinese educated what" hahahaha...

This is the most funny part i remember .. hahahaha...

I guess , i have ntg much to talk about you ..

Bcoz whatever i want you to help you will just say " OKAY" ,"YES BOSS", "NO Problem" ..

You are such a friend that never turn down anything that we ask for ...

You ah .. better be clever liao .. later ppl take advantage of you how ??

You jaga jaga lah .... Better protect yourself ya ... hehehehe

Oh ya , there is something that i want to tell you .. but hope you dont mind la hah??

hahahaha.... Wei , i know sometimes we and the group have different channels .. but i am now trying to join them... i wont speak but i will listen ....

If you can ?? Join them too ... like this we can learn more things mah ... AGREE boh ?? hahahaha

Its last sem jor ... we need to act like a team ... DOnt stay alone just bcoz the channel is different k ???

We learn from each other... Wuhahahahaha..... Hope you get what i say la .. Coz i always saw you sitting there playing your phone... like you are not related to them so sien leh... you also feel sien right ?? hahahaha.... Now SELENA and YEN will try to JOIN the group k ?? hehehe

You are always my BUDDY yen ~~ hehehehe